The Ambivalent Amphibians
In honor of the two year anniversary of OUT OF CHAOS
“Born from this place of pain, confusion and realization –The Ambivalent Amphibians is my powerful self-reflection. At the time, it was the darkest thing I had ever written, a coming-to-self that I was drowning, and the gateway leading to my unsteady descent into chaos.”
The Ambivalent Amphibians
I am a creature who weaves false hopes with expectations.
Dwelling intermediately, victim of interpretations.
A prisoner of indecision
Choices – chains shackled to my ankles.
A prisoner of uncertainty
A twisted rope, left in tangles…
The ambivalent amphibian,
Lurking in bottomless muddy waters.
An endless mind of chaos, one which never falters.
Trying to stay above
But these chains pull me,
Down
Down
Down
These chains they pull me downward
Reluctantly
I drown.
Sinking slowly into darkness,
Abyss traps me like a cage
Heavy chains around my ankles,
All-consuming rage.
"Swim upwards!” screams the silence, “Break free! Control your kind!”
But this creature knows no such feeling
Held captive by the mind
These beasts they juggle odds
Over contemplate the outcome
They toss and turn with choices
The chains, they can’t escape from
And I, the wicked master
Of this distraught, unruly race
Sinking slowly to the bottom
I disappear without a trace….