Prayer of the Unworthy

Today, I caught myself questioning if I was deserving of a blessing. Of any and all blessings. I pondered whether or not I was even worthy of getting what I prayed for. I wondered if I was selfish for ever even asking.

I stood at the threshold of the open door.

And all I could do was pray more. 

As if at any moment I would unsee what was in front of me. As if it was all my imagination.

Every prayer is heard and answered. If it wasn’t meant to be, it wouldn’t have been. If it wasn’t for me, it wouldn’t have given. 

I realized that there is no such thing as “unworthy.” There is no such thing as “undeserving.” We always receive what is ours and lose what is not.

Who am I to turn my back on the very thing I wanted? Who am I to disgrace such a gift? The only thing that equates to unworthiness is ungratefulness. It’s as if my essence rejects blessings because I immediately assume it’s all too good to be true.

But what if it’s not? What if it is true? What if it’s possible to get everything you wanted…what if there is no “catch.” What if feeling unworthy is the only illusion?

If you find yourself in this position, remember this: You are worthy of everything you have earned and everything you are given.

You are enough.

Never let negativity steal your joy. Never let anything belittle your blessing. God gives only to those who are deserving, and sometimes, He even gives you more than you ever could have dreamed. Remember, the only thing that isn’t real is your perception of unworthiness.

Go be great, may you cup ovaaaaa floweth!