Good Side, Bad Side, or Both?

I pondered my lingering madness

All of my restless endeavors

Considered myself as the valiant bird

Stripped of its wings and its feathers

I thought about love and I thought about hate

The act to create and destroy

Both the anger and sadness that sits on my soul

The balance of sorrow and joy

I thought about jealousy–green as jade

And I sat with my sickening pride

I stood face to face with ego and flaw

My evil and benevolent side

I thought about kindness and loneliness

I screamed at the stars from my roof

Encaged in a world of steel and brick

Searching the cosmos for truth

I stared at the heavens, I cried to the skies

Begged for a definite path

I prayed for a clear direction and got handed a road split in half

I sat and I wondered how sitting in place

Seemed, in part, why I couldn’t decide

I discovered what covered my judgment

The truth—I had buried in lies

I have deduced that there is no use

This inevitable balance of two

I’ll always be split into sides of myself

Confused by which one to choose.

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Poem,“Which Side.”
In the book, this piece is paired with the painting “Self Portrait Three,” by Brooklyn based Artist Grant McGrath.
Visit his website to view his artwork.